Tuesday, January 26, 2010
randomness. i cant sleep.
TOUGH TIME DON'T LAST, BUT TOUGH PEOPLE DO.
>4 more weeks of school (happy or sad?)
this is probably the lastest night im up (probably in more than 2 weeks? i've been sleeping super early lately!), many many things going thru' my mind. its too occupied that im tired physically but not mentally.
i've yet to know them* well enough. get alive.
down with sore throat ytd plus a headache and now flu and cough! what a bad time! :(
>4 more weeks of school (happy or sad?)
this is probably the lastest night im up (probably in more than 2 weeks? i've been sleeping super early lately!), many many things going thru' my mind. its too occupied that im tired physically but not mentally.
i've yet to know them* well enough. get alive.
down with sore throat ytd plus a headache and now flu and cough! what a bad time! :(
left my shadow @3:30 AM
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Sunday, January 10, 2010
the first post of twenty-ten.
if you're reading this, no, im not going to brain storm what has happened in 2009 and my new years' resolution. OMG, i don't have time for those. i just want to spend two minutes or three to VENT MY ANGER.
i don't know why but i must say, BLOGS ARE A NUISANCE SOMETIMES. you misuse them and try to say something sarcastic about some one and, blogs become so vandalised (like mine cause its just full of my own personal nonsense) and whatever blah blah blah..
friday night, i ended my night crying, thinking of my parents and sister (and how i really wish to fly to hk to accompany them right after final exams).
i feel like pullingggggggggggggggggggg my hair and SCREAM. yes, now, now.. i do not know how to become my usual self any more. im working like a double headed snake now (YIKES, who likes it) you're really making me feel guilty. BLARDY.
complaining about the slightst thing. LIKE WHAT. i've got more things to bother about. DAMN.
SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH LOUDLY. blardy one-nail. :/ JI DAN GAOS.
i SIGH one more time my grandma would think im suffering from depression or what. OH WHAT EVER! no one shall care about me. LEAVE ME ALONE WHEN I STONE. THINKING IN PROCESS.
tell me what would you do here (to whoever's gonna be the smart ass) ComN or ND tutorial, ComN supermarket proj, intervention proj, or ND liver proj. AND shall i even study and sit for the quiz on tues. *slaps myself* i don't get to choose because i MUST. or else i'll probably need to chop off my head and let people kick it far far away.
I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LATE ALWAYS. but it simply just show that i couldnt be bothered about anything any more. i just feel very reluctant to go to school. i mean seriously. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. why can't i work like the other poly students? i just have poor management. IM A SUCKY PERSON. go far far far away from me.
LET ME EMO ON MY OWN.
i don't know why but i must say, BLOGS ARE A NUISANCE SOMETIMES. you misuse them and try to say something sarcastic about some one and, blogs become so vandalised (like mine cause its just full of my own personal nonsense) and whatever blah blah blah..
friday night, i ended my night crying, thinking of my parents and sister (and how i really wish to fly to hk to accompany them right after final exams).
i feel like pullingggggggggggggggggggg my hair and SCREAM. yes, now, now.. i do not know how to become my usual self any more. im working like a double headed snake now (YIKES, who likes it) you're really making me feel guilty. BLARDY.
complaining about the slightst thing. LIKE WHAT. i've got more things to bother about. DAMN.
SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH LOUDLY. blardy one-nail. :/ JI DAN GAOS.
i SIGH one more time my grandma would think im suffering from depression or what. OH WHAT EVER! no one shall care about me. LEAVE ME ALONE WHEN I STONE. THINKING IN PROCESS.
tell me what would you do here (to whoever's gonna be the smart ass) ComN or ND tutorial, ComN supermarket proj, intervention proj, or ND liver proj. AND shall i even study and sit for the quiz on tues. *slaps myself* i don't get to choose because i MUST. or else i'll probably need to chop off my head and let people kick it far far away.
I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LATE ALWAYS. but it simply just show that i couldnt be bothered about anything any more. i just feel very reluctant to go to school. i mean seriously. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. why can't i work like the other poly students? i just have poor management. IM A SUCKY PERSON. go far far far away from me.
LET ME EMO ON MY OWN.
left my shadow @11:17 PM
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Thursday, December 03, 2009
personal feelings.
i often get so frustrated. with what? with myself.
i don't know how to start and what to start with, next week term test! :/ DANG. i don't even think im prepared for it. angry, with myself for not knowing what to start with.
after exams? RIGHT AFTER EXAMS? need to go camp to help out for NCO camp till 14th late afternoon i guess?! DOUBLE DANGS. sighs, DeCon project due on 14th. good luck to me, and congrats to myself. :/ angry, with myself for not planning time better, shall i even not commit to NCOC in the first place? what am i actually gaining? recognition or whatever? so what recognition? my promotion was practically forgotten. what the..? so what if i get a promotion, its probably nothing to me. NOTHING. i don't even get a damn CCA point in poly for helping out, the reason is that my care person know nuts about it.. like WOW?
no one knows and understand what kind of dilemma im in now, who to complain to, no one. my blog's here for me.
i hate is so so so so much (x a million zillion times) for you to just say "its like that one lah, my who who who also like that what" yah, thats applying to some one ELSE. when your parents weren't with you for the few days, you were saying so much already, did you even spare a thought for some one like.. ME? i dont want anyone to sympathize me or what so ever, but at least just care for some one who is in a much suckier situation than you. so stop complaining just for the few days. you've got your parents to back you up, your family members, be it irritating or not. someone's at least there. everyone's with you. what more do you want. so PLEASE. stop saying your who ever is in the same situation as me - MY PARENTS AINT HERE FOR ME. because simply its not applied to YOU. its ME, you'll never feel it even your whole body is in my shoe. if you wasnt my friend, i would have told you something this sarcastic right in your face.
what brings me to ponder about this matter again? because i miss them, and i want to go HK really soon, lets say next year 3-4 months after school ends? that's a long long way to go.
i don't know how to start and what to start with, next week term test! :/ DANG. i don't even think im prepared for it. angry, with myself for not knowing what to start with.
after exams? RIGHT AFTER EXAMS? need to go camp to help out for NCO camp till 14th late afternoon i guess?! DOUBLE DANGS. sighs, DeCon project due on 14th. good luck to me, and congrats to myself. :/ angry, with myself for not planning time better, shall i even not commit to NCOC in the first place? what am i actually gaining? recognition or whatever? so what recognition? my promotion was practically forgotten. what the..? so what if i get a promotion, its probably nothing to me. NOTHING. i don't even get a damn CCA point in poly for helping out, the reason is that my care person know nuts about it.. like WOW?
no one knows and understand what kind of dilemma im in now, who to complain to, no one. my blog's here for me.
i hate is so so so so much (x a million zillion times) for you to just say "its like that one lah, my who who who also like that what" yah, thats applying to some one ELSE. when your parents weren't with you for the few days, you were saying so much already, did you even spare a thought for some one like.. ME? i dont want anyone to sympathize me or what so ever, but at least just care for some one who is in a much suckier situation than you. so stop complaining just for the few days. you've got your parents to back you up, your family members, be it irritating or not. someone's at least there. everyone's with you. what more do you want. so PLEASE. stop saying your who ever is in the same situation as me - MY PARENTS AINT HERE FOR ME. because simply its not applied to YOU. its ME, you'll never feel it even your whole body is in my shoe. if you wasnt my friend, i would have told you something this sarcastic right in your face.
what brings me to ponder about this matter again? because i miss them, and i want to go HK really soon, lets say next year 3-4 months after school ends? that's a long long way to go.
left my shadow @2:27 AM
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Sunday, November 29, 2009
take it all away!
***SCREAMS AND PULLS HAIR ***
im such a failure in multi-tasking! its important!
and now, i don't know how to tie up all the loose ends here and there.
school's pulling my right hand, SJ NCOC is pulling my left hand and parents now need me to do some stuffs i'm ain't sure if i can spare a hand or a minute or two. how i wish that i can be at two different places doing two different things at the same time. ROAR!
MLB's taking all from me, all the stress :) temporarily.
cookie. cookie jar. cookie jars! 3 cheers to me, qh and yj! its finally done :D
(btw, many ppl have been asking me to update my blog more regularly, but i don't think i have the time, so i'll only post here when im in deep thoughts or happy events to share! so stay tuned :D)
im such a failure in multi-tasking! its important!
and now, i don't know how to tie up all the loose ends here and there.
school's pulling my right hand, SJ NCOC is pulling my left hand and parents now need me to do some stuffs i'm ain't sure if i can spare a hand or a minute or two. how i wish that i can be at two different places doing two different things at the same time. ROAR!
MLB's taking all from me, all the stress :) temporarily.
cookie. cookie jar. cookie jars! 3 cheers to me, qh and yj! its finally done :D
(btw, many ppl have been asking me to update my blog more regularly, but i don't think i have the time, so i'll only post here when im in deep thoughts or happy events to share! so stay tuned :D)
left my shadow @1:55 AM
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
tell me what to study!
ROARS. tomorrow/ later will be Community Nutrition quiz 1! GOSH. someone please help me by telling me what to study for this open book test! this is probably driving me crazy 'cos i haven't been doing well in school work! :/
anyways, happy birthday to baby #3! :D gratz to MLB!
okay and now back to what i should be doing - READ NOTES! x(
anyways, happy birthday to baby #3! :D gratz to MLB!
okay and now back to what i should be doing - READ NOTES! x(
left my shadow @5:04 AM
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Monday, November 02, 2009
bit of thoughts, frustrations and emotions.
zoom, 3rd week of school.. time passed pretty fast. and by the end of week 2, one report down. school has been quite hectic, i don't know how i should describe it.
i'm feeling terrible during projects. i can't see what i can do for the group, or it seems like there's nothing on the group. every term, i've been wishing for better GPA, and this always happens - 力不从心. i don't know what i am doing.
yesterday, 1/11 was a pretty good day for me with funs and lotsa laughters with the girl and, poof! today all the good mood is gone, and leaving me with my emotional shell again.
i've been thinking for quite some time over certain issues, she left me speechless and the other stunned with what she'd done. thats what we call friendship for 7 years? vesus 1 month plus. what a disappointment, and i'd really been thinking about this for quite some time. what a misery.
today was pretty much the first day of the term staying in school till 8pm, i dont like it. neither anyone else. project room was so much filled with unhappy gas which made me so emotional with the addition of constant sighing made me more confused and irritated. what can i do?
i've been thinking of the person/ people that i've been missing most who are far far away from my reach. i've been thinking for the whole late afternoon that completely flooded my mind, leaving my mind practically blank.
don't complain just because you don't have them with you for a couple of days, you told me, "its like that one la, my who who who also like" yeah, thats some one else, you think is so easy to go through everything alone? you've made it sounding so simple and easy and its already more than 2 months, and it hasn't be easy for me.
i often feel so frustrated and irritated cos i dont have some one like my sis with me to share my sorrows and frustrations with. it isn't easy to keep everything to myself. i thought i could do it but again, easier said than done.
to think of it, all the hard times my parents and my sis are going through now, its all one person to blame who made it sounded so easy to my parents just for his own benefit and to earn himself more money. you are my greatest enemy who made me feel so tired ever before. i hate you.
i'm feeling terrible during projects. i can't see what i can do for the group, or it seems like there's nothing on the group. every term, i've been wishing for better GPA, and this always happens - 力不从心. i don't know what i am doing.
yesterday, 1/11 was a pretty good day for me with funs and lotsa laughters with the girl and, poof! today all the good mood is gone, and leaving me with my emotional shell again.
i've been thinking for quite some time over certain issues, she left me speechless and the other stunned with what she'd done. thats what we call friendship for 7 years? vesus 1 month plus. what a disappointment, and i'd really been thinking about this for quite some time. what a misery.
today was pretty much the first day of the term staying in school till 8pm, i dont like it. neither anyone else. project room was so much filled with unhappy gas which made me so emotional with the addition of constant sighing made me more confused and irritated. what can i do?
i've been thinking of the person/ people that i've been missing most who are far far away from my reach. i've been thinking for the whole late afternoon that completely flooded my mind, leaving my mind practically blank.
don't complain just because you don't have them with you for a couple of days, you told me, "its like that one la, my who who who also like" yeah, thats some one else, you think is so easy to go through everything alone? you've made it sounding so simple and easy and its already more than 2 months, and it hasn't be easy for me.
i often feel so frustrated and irritated cos i dont have some one like my sis with me to share my sorrows and frustrations with. it isn't easy to keep everything to myself. i thought i could do it but again, easier said than done.
to think of it, all the hard times my parents and my sis are going through now, its all one person to blame who made it sounded so easy to my parents just for his own benefit and to earn himself more money. you are my greatest enemy who made me feel so tired ever before. i hate you.
left my shadow @10:49 PM
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Saturday, October 10, 2009
TIME'S FLYING! going back to singapore on monday; 2 more days! daddy asked me if i was feeling happy or sad? so, i guess, its a mixed feeling! :/
kinda late now, but i guess i should do some blogging! tired today, shopping at Causeway Bay -> Prince Edward -> Mong Kok and back to Kowloon Bay! but no shopping at Kowloon Bay (where im living right now, shopping is abundance, but not here!) tomorrow going out (rare saturday outings! since its the last weekend, therefore, meet ups!)
before i start clogging all my picture files, some picture upload! (: tonnes of them! xD
Halloween Mood :D:D
Sweet treats for Halloween! xD
Thursday (?)'s trip to Prince Edward! (i've been going there for continuously 3 days, HAHAHA)
Trip to Apliu Street! Street shops selling food!
typical hong kong scene? (:
last minute, unprepared raining attire: change shoes, roll jeans up (my own fashion trend then!)
Mid Autumn dinner for us?
first ever time i see the "park" below the blog so crowded: Mid autumn! (unfortunately i didn't have the chance to play!)
festive chocolates for mid autumn from lucullus :D
bunny chocolate! (you know how much i love bunnies yea! :D)
chocolate with a "yolk"!
Tsim Sha Tsui going to victoria harbour!
lunar 16th moon!
at victoria harbour!
laser show! (nothing special actually :x)
kinda late now, but i guess i should do some blogging! tired today, shopping at Causeway Bay -> Prince Edward -> Mong Kok and back to Kowloon Bay! but no shopping at Kowloon Bay (where im living right now, shopping is abundance, but not here!) tomorrow going out (rare saturday outings! since its the last weekend, therefore, meet ups!)
before i start clogging all my picture files, some picture upload! (: tonnes of them! xD
Halloween Mood :D:D
Sweet treats for Halloween! xD
Thursday (?)'s trip to Prince Edward! (i've been going there for continuously 3 days, HAHAHA)Trip to Apliu Street! Street shops selling food!
typical hong kong scene? (:
last minute, unprepared raining attire: change shoes, roll jeans up (my own fashion trend then!)
Mid Autumn dinner for us?
first ever time i see the "park" below the blog so crowded: Mid autumn! (unfortunately i didn't have the chance to play!)
festive chocolates for mid autumn from lucullus :D
bunny chocolate! (you know how much i love bunnies yea! :D)
chocolate with a "yolk"!Tsim Sha Tsui going to victoria harbour!
lunar 16th moon!
at victoria harbour!
laser show! (nothing special actually :x)
thats all for now! going to sleep now :D
left my shadow @2:54 AM
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