Thursday, November 01, 2007
those things i missed badly.
SIGHS SIGHS!
feeling rather emo these days.. i might be cheerful as usual but deep down in my heart, i don't know wads going on with me.. everything seems not right for me.. and its just happening to me.. is it because the people around me are giving me the fake smiles and fake attitude and everything feels so fake.. arghs~
rather i felt super duper disappointed yesterday.. i couldn't control my emotions.. i just had to let my tears in my eyes out.. SADDED..
SJ is a part of my life since sec 1 or so.. and ever since sec 1, i have been participating as far as i could.. and finally i think my effort was paid off in sec 3 when WE as a whole sec 3 runned the SJ.. we brought the name up.. with our hearts, sweat and tears.. and we've gone so far and never will i want to see it landing right in the bottom where no one recognise us..
just recently, RECENTLY ; YESTERDAY. went back to school to take a look, hopefully i can help in somthing or so.. ended up, i felt like an outsider, not welcomed at all.. the feeling sucks big time.. REALLY.. i have to admit that.. my presence dosen't seem like a big difference.. i don't get it.. is that what i get for sacrificing my precious time? school was super SHAG yesterday can.. and only me and xi ling got to leave early at 2pm and my friends claimed we can go home rest etc etc.. and ended up i go and help and get all this crap.. TOTALLY CRAP CAN! :(
i miss those SJ days when i get to training with leonora, hizan and all for competition.. the seriousness we had, it seemed extinct already.. training now looks like a fooling session.. i dun see any thing.. i didn't even have the chance to compliment them.. its not my fault..
why must i waste my precious time on things which don't even need me.. and also i dun gain ANY CCA points or wad-so-ever points.. IT DIDN'T BENEFIT ME ANY SINGLE BIT.. and yet, i VOLUNTEERED.. how stupid right?
LABELS : 你们不该做的事都做了, 再多的道歉也没有用. 因为你们已经伤透了我的心
picture taken in Basic Microbiology lab.. Eve, Si Ni and me!
feeling rather emo these days.. i might be cheerful as usual but deep down in my heart, i don't know wads going on with me.. everything seems not right for me.. and its just happening to me.. is it because the people around me are giving me the fake smiles and fake attitude and everything feels so fake.. arghs~
rather i felt super duper disappointed yesterday.. i couldn't control my emotions.. i just had to let my tears in my eyes out.. SADDED..
SJ is a part of my life since sec 1 or so.. and ever since sec 1, i have been participating as far as i could.. and finally i think my effort was paid off in sec 3 when WE as a whole sec 3 runned the SJ.. we brought the name up.. with our hearts, sweat and tears.. and we've gone so far and never will i want to see it landing right in the bottom where no one recognise us..
just recently, RECENTLY ; YESTERDAY. went back to school to take a look, hopefully i can help in somthing or so.. ended up, i felt like an outsider, not welcomed at all.. the feeling sucks big time.. REALLY.. i have to admit that.. my presence dosen't seem like a big difference.. i don't get it.. is that what i get for sacrificing my precious time? school was super SHAG yesterday can.. and only me and xi ling got to leave early at 2pm and my friends claimed we can go home rest etc etc.. and ended up i go and help and get all this crap.. TOTALLY CRAP CAN! :(
i miss those SJ days when i get to training with leonora, hizan and all for competition.. the seriousness we had, it seemed extinct already.. training now looks like a fooling session.. i dun see any thing.. i didn't even have the chance to compliment them.. its not my fault..
why must i waste my precious time on things which don't even need me.. and also i dun gain ANY CCA points or wad-so-ever points.. IT DIDN'T BENEFIT ME ANY SINGLE BIT.. and yet, i VOLUNTEERED.. how stupid right?
LABELS : 你们不该做的事都做了, 再多的道歉也没有用. 因为你们已经伤透了我的心
picture taken in Basic Microbiology lab.. Eve, Si Ni and me!
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